So I managed to pin down my final working day which is the 21st April prior to the easter long weekend.
Does not leave me with many working days left due to lieu days owed etc so basically as of Monday I have 11 working days left.
Lots to wrap up,some training to fit in with the new reservations manager who is coming in especially to have some handover as she only officially joins in May.
This is really a bumper month ahead and I need to desperately get a grip of my energy levels.I am feeling sapped on most days and am not getting to the gym as much as I should.
Started with my vitamins again this week.As much as I have a busy timeline mapped out on my calendar on the back of my bedroom door as well as a copy in my handbag its all very exciting.
Today I experienced attending the last "You make the difference awards" monthly do at work and I sat there thrilled to have shared those experiences over the years and was pleased with myself that on occassion have been nominated too :)
I fell victim to the yummy pastis de nata on the spread and then felt hell of a guilty for having it and this is beacause I know I am not gyming as much as I should!
Anyhoo time is a ticking,three weeks left with my car,two farewell picnics in two different cities and lots to wrap up.Woohoo!!!!
Stay tuned for updates....
Btw my brother Adhil and Bridget have got engaged this eve in Florence!!!!I am so thrilled for them.
They are on an amazing trip travelling through Italy.(Wow wee...)
Am so grateful for Adhils daily texts updating us as to where they are and what they doing.Feeling deep gratitude this evening for a close knit family who show a keen interest in each others experiences.Been consciously thinking of this since last night as I spoke to a family friend from my childhood who has been living an unhappyt life for almost ten years now which has just gone downhill and for me one of the most natural questions was "What does your siblings say" and she said "they don't live here and are busy in their own lives."
My heart felt really sore for her as through my lens I always viewed them as a family who are close knit and would keep communication flowing.
Sometimes my siblings and my life gets busy but I think between us four there is always someone reminding each other that we here and share in each others moments.Hopefully we never reach a point of those long silences where months go back "because life got busy."
Its an excuse which for never sits well.Btw thinking of creating a new blog dedicated to my Dubai experience.
I feel as I am starting a new chapter a new blog is fitting :) Hopefully I will get to load pics more regularly too.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
into the DEEP cleaning out!
So I have been doing real well with this clearing out mission.Funny enough its been fairly easy to part with my "stuff" as in my heart it feels right.
People say I am brave to be chucking out and starting over!It feels damn good-let me tell you that much :)
I keep thinking that a lot of this "stuff" sits there in my cupboards probablty wishing they could be seen.(Well that's if the stuff was living!)
What's the use of having all of this when there are tons of people there who would love to have some of my stuff.I have given my stuff to a variety of people-people who are in need,people who wouldn't mind little reminders of me,people who think my stuff could benefit them...
Why have all this stuff put into storage anyway.I don't know what the future holds...who knows where I might go from Dubai.
I don't want to look back thinking "Damn I should have given my stuff to people to use versus it sitting in storage in the dark collecting dust and not being a part of someones everyday joy :)
On a day off today.Spent the morning at the gym...set up two fb invites for my farewells in Cpt and Durbs-still need to contact the peeps not on fb,cleared out loads of stuff and now am at a hidden gem in the city centre "Deluxe Coffee Works" having their much talked abt 10 bucks damn good coffee!
Nice to catch a breather :)
People say I am brave to be chucking out and starting over!It feels damn good-let me tell you that much :)
I keep thinking that a lot of this "stuff" sits there in my cupboards probablty wishing they could be seen.(Well that's if the stuff was living!)
What's the use of having all of this when there are tons of people there who would love to have some of my stuff.I have given my stuff to a variety of people-people who are in need,people who wouldn't mind little reminders of me,people who think my stuff could benefit them...
Why have all this stuff put into storage anyway.I don't know what the future holds...who knows where I might go from Dubai.
I don't want to look back thinking "Damn I should have given my stuff to people to use versus it sitting in storage in the dark collecting dust and not being a part of someones everyday joy :)
On a day off today.Spent the morning at the gym...set up two fb invites for my farewells in Cpt and Durbs-still need to contact the peeps not on fb,cleared out loads of stuff and now am at a hidden gem in the city centre "Deluxe Coffee Works" having their much talked abt 10 bucks damn good coffee!
Nice to catch a breather :)
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Ramblings and findings of a 21 year olds journal
While clearing out some of my storage boxes I came across one of my old journals.
I love journals-jotting down my thoughts and feelings is close to my heart.
This particular journal had entries from my 21 year old mind.I of course read them-made myself comfy and took myself back in time.
Each entry was addressed to Dad.I came a few entries where I stated that the home front was stressful,I was trying my best to do what I could to make things lighter and it didn't feel good enough,Mum was highly stressed and not managing it well and I mentioned in an entry that mum had been to the casino thrice that week and the days after she was always tired and ratty and all I was longing for was more time with her to do mother-daughter things.
I also mentioned to "Dad" that I was amazed at how mum was juggling this all and how she missed him.
I also touched on a siblings temper that was getting out of hand and was not appreciated at that time!!!Lol
I funny enough also had an entry about a possible trip to Dubai on the cards!!!
I then tore the papers up and trashed them.Wonder what other journals I will find.
I was amused and sad at the same time while reading those entries and I mentioned them to my mum.Now you probably wondering why would I do that as it might upset her.
I see it as it was real-I felt those feelings at that time and mum was def doing the best she could in her world at the time.
Lifes lessons have come from them.There is no escaping the reality.We too often go through life not discussing the real matters and I have chosen to embrace them and learn from them best I can.
I love journals-jotting down my thoughts and feelings is close to my heart.
This particular journal had entries from my 21 year old mind.I of course read them-made myself comfy and took myself back in time.
Each entry was addressed to Dad.I came a few entries where I stated that the home front was stressful,I was trying my best to do what I could to make things lighter and it didn't feel good enough,Mum was highly stressed and not managing it well and I mentioned in an entry that mum had been to the casino thrice that week and the days after she was always tired and ratty and all I was longing for was more time with her to do mother-daughter things.
I also mentioned to "Dad" that I was amazed at how mum was juggling this all and how she missed him.
I also touched on a siblings temper that was getting out of hand and was not appreciated at that time!!!Lol
I funny enough also had an entry about a possible trip to Dubai on the cards!!!
I then tore the papers up and trashed them.Wonder what other journals I will find.
I was amused and sad at the same time while reading those entries and I mentioned them to my mum.Now you probably wondering why would I do that as it might upset her.
I see it as it was real-I felt those feelings at that time and mum was def doing the best she could in her world at the time.
Lifes lessons have come from them.There is no escaping the reality.We too often go through life not discussing the real matters and I have chosen to embrace them and learn from them best I can.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
deathbead mentality
Well even though I try to live each day like this I just have this extra energy and just want to make sure I leave with my a trail of good memories for the people I leave behind at the Nelly.
I feel as if I have this extra energy and bounce and am savouring each work day that much more :)
Today one of my ex general managers called as he heard the news re me leaving.Out of concern he went on about me being a single lady going on my own and he said its tough out there.
I get that and I feel its a calling for me to go and the reasons I will reveal once there.
I am mentally prepping myself and I am going to give it my best shot :) I sure am a tough cookie.
He did in the same breathe of cross questioning me and trying to convince me to stay say that he is sad that I am leaving.
It meant a lot to hear him say that.I really enjoyed working with him back in the day.Easy going GM who found time for laughs and was so approachable.
Lots of fonds memories :) Well I continue to channel this new found energy to those around me!
Can't tell you how much more exciting the workplace has become for me.
I feel as if I have this extra energy and bounce and am savouring each work day that much more :)
Today one of my ex general managers called as he heard the news re me leaving.Out of concern he went on about me being a single lady going on my own and he said its tough out there.
I get that and I feel its a calling for me to go and the reasons I will reveal once there.
I am mentally prepping myself and I am going to give it my best shot :) I sure am a tough cookie.
He did in the same breathe of cross questioning me and trying to convince me to stay say that he is sad that I am leaving.
It meant a lot to hear him say that.I really enjoyed working with him back in the day.Easy going GM who found time for laughs and was so approachable.
Lots of fonds memories :) Well I continue to channel this new found energy to those around me!
Can't tell you how much more exciting the workplace has become for me.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Start of the farewells
Today I had to bid farewell to my all time fave guests "The Mannings."
I thought all will be fine with my emotions until I got to the lounge and saw these two very smartly dressed people.
They looked as if they were about to head off to dinner at a smart restaurant.
Mr.Manning was dressed in formal longs and Mrs.in a beautiful blue dress with jewellery too!!
Not often that I see people that smartly dressed to board the flight back to the U.K!!!!
They looked adorable.We sat in the lounge and Austen the lounge manager took a photo of us for me on my camera.
The last few minutes chatting with them was sure challenging as I could not stop thinking that was probably the last time I will see them.
I walked them to their transfer waiting to leave to the airport and Mrs. kept telling me that she will miss me and Mr.wished me all the best and rekons I deserve it.
Helping Mrs into the car broke my heart as due to her stroke she battles with the one side of her body.
I helped her get in which was a battle and I could see she was embarassed about me helping her which was much needed.She then grabbed my hand once seated and told me again that she will miss me.(I am tearing as I write this)
I could not help but think of my mum in that moment.Mr came around the vehicle,gave me a formal handshake and a kiss on each cheek and wished me well again.
By now I had the biggest lump in my throat and when I got to the office started tearing.
Nothing lasts forever and I am just grateful I had the opportunity to meet this beautiful couple.
I thought all will be fine with my emotions until I got to the lounge and saw these two very smartly dressed people.
They looked as if they were about to head off to dinner at a smart restaurant.
Mr.Manning was dressed in formal longs and Mrs.in a beautiful blue dress with jewellery too!!
Not often that I see people that smartly dressed to board the flight back to the U.K!!!!
They looked adorable.We sat in the lounge and Austen the lounge manager took a photo of us for me on my camera.
The last few minutes chatting with them was sure challenging as I could not stop thinking that was probably the last time I will see them.
I walked them to their transfer waiting to leave to the airport and Mrs. kept telling me that she will miss me and Mr.wished me all the best and rekons I deserve it.
Helping Mrs into the car broke my heart as due to her stroke she battles with the one side of her body.
I helped her get in which was a battle and I could see she was embarassed about me helping her which was much needed.She then grabbed my hand once seated and told me again that she will miss me.(I am tearing as I write this)
I could not help but think of my mum in that moment.Mr came around the vehicle,gave me a formal handshake and a kiss on each cheek and wished me well again.
By now I had the biggest lump in my throat and when I got to the office started tearing.
Nothing lasts forever and I am just grateful I had the opportunity to meet this beautiful couple.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
What a weekend
Gee whizz!I have had a spectacular weekend with Aroon and Bear.Yesterday had such an awesome flow chilling,sun on our skin and chit chat.
We had a touch of Paradiso and Sidewalk added to the mix too :)
Last night we had dinner from the eastern food bazaar at home.It was so good to sit and eat together.
I love meals at a table and more so with good friends and family.
This morning Yas and I went to support Aroon and Bear at the big event.On arrival at Suikerbossie I fought back the tears a few times thinking that here these guys are after commiting and training.
Couldn't help but ooze with an overwhelming exciting feeling.
The atmosphere was magical and really there is something so special about the human race coming together for events like this and the joy you see on their faces.
Why can't we live in harmony like that on a daily basis with each other????
Being with Yas and Jeanne was great and we kept the "gees" going.
The music was good and we were in awe of the riders and the effortd they put in to their attire too!
I left wishing I had got there earlier to cheer more of the riders on.Standing there cheering I thought of my gran who used to head to 45th ave in Sherwood during the comerades to cheer the runners on.
I can imagine the good times she had.I now get into bed after a most special weekend and a great dinner at Hudsons with Anu and Sahil too.All in all a most "AWE0S0ME" weekend.
We had a touch of Paradiso and Sidewalk added to the mix too :)
Last night we had dinner from the eastern food bazaar at home.It was so good to sit and eat together.
I love meals at a table and more so with good friends and family.
This morning Yas and I went to support Aroon and Bear at the big event.On arrival at Suikerbossie I fought back the tears a few times thinking that here these guys are after commiting and training.
Couldn't help but ooze with an overwhelming exciting feeling.
The atmosphere was magical and really there is something so special about the human race coming together for events like this and the joy you see on their faces.
Why can't we live in harmony like that on a daily basis with each other????
Being with Yas and Jeanne was great and we kept the "gees" going.
The music was good and we were in awe of the riders and the effortd they put in to their attire too!
I left wishing I had got there earlier to cheer more of the riders on.Standing there cheering I thought of my gran who used to head to 45th ave in Sherwood during the comerades to cheer the runners on.
I can imagine the good times she had.I now get into bed after a most special weekend and a great dinner at Hudsons with Anu and Sahil too.All in all a most "AWE0S0ME" weekend.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
feeling a lil low but will turn it around
Woke up feeling a little strange.Called mum to see how she is doing and it fueled my feeling even more.
Mum sounded so despondent and I rekon its because of the deep pain she is in.Her tablet quota from the hospital has been used for the month so she can't het more right now.
Mum also asked me if Tatum will take her to the shops this weekend.I just wonder why does mum not reach out to all those who have said they are willing and there for her.
Why is mum not making contact?Well I also guess she is feeling more so in a dark hole processing that she is not allowed to drive anymore.
I hate to think what she is going through in her world however I can't get my head around her not wanting to reach out to people there for her.
I felt so helpless after the call and could hear her irritation about people telling her to look at the brighter things.
This worries me but I guess I need to keep the faith and hope around her coming around.We not in her shoes so really I don't know what's best for her.Anyhoo best I continue to enjoy the sunshine on my skin,take in this view from Raw Cafe and look forward to time with Aroon and Bear.
Mum sounded so despondent and I rekon its because of the deep pain she is in.Her tablet quota from the hospital has been used for the month so she can't het more right now.
Mum also asked me if Tatum will take her to the shops this weekend.I just wonder why does mum not reach out to all those who have said they are willing and there for her.
Why is mum not making contact?Well I also guess she is feeling more so in a dark hole processing that she is not allowed to drive anymore.
I hate to think what she is going through in her world however I can't get my head around her not wanting to reach out to people there for her.
I felt so helpless after the call and could hear her irritation about people telling her to look at the brighter things.
This worries me but I guess I need to keep the faith and hope around her coming around.We not in her shoes so really I don't know what's best for her.Anyhoo best I continue to enjoy the sunshine on my skin,take in this view from Raw Cafe and look forward to time with Aroon and Bear.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
big exhale
Yesterday I handed in my letter of resignation at the hotel!!!A long and most life enriching chapter has come to an end and I am packing my bags for Dubai!!!!!
Yes,yes,yes!Can you believe it.I had closed the door on the idea of going to work there and had it on my list of places to visit one day however Dubai came knocking on my door.
I was contacted by the Jumeirah group and have been through a series of telephonic interviews which flowed beautifully and just over a month and a bit of the interview process I am off to Dubai.
A difficult decision as of course I am leaving my family and friends behind and my mums illness having spread had been difficult to process.
Through prayer and guidance,mums blessings and me trusting life I am going.Life waits for no one and we have to deal with lifes gifts and challenges as they unfold.
I think mum will be at ease in her heart to see me crafting the next step of my life.
We have shared many beautiful moments together and possibly there are many more awaiting us.
Mum is a fighter and a strong woman and I leave knowing she is 100% happy with my decision and is supportive.
A new adventure awaits me,new places to discover,new people to inspire and to be inspired by,more lessons await and much much more.
Its never easy saying goodbye and I had my first round of it in Jozi where we sis and her hubby hosted a beautiful breakfast for my friends.It was a most enjoyable and special morning and I was touched by everyones presence.
Saying goodbye was not easy despite me not showing it however I know we will all keep in touch.
Yes,yes,yes!Can you believe it.I had closed the door on the idea of going to work there and had it on my list of places to visit one day however Dubai came knocking on my door.
I was contacted by the Jumeirah group and have been through a series of telephonic interviews which flowed beautifully and just over a month and a bit of the interview process I am off to Dubai.
A difficult decision as of course I am leaving my family and friends behind and my mums illness having spread had been difficult to process.
Through prayer and guidance,mums blessings and me trusting life I am going.Life waits for no one and we have to deal with lifes gifts and challenges as they unfold.
I think mum will be at ease in her heart to see me crafting the next step of my life.
We have shared many beautiful moments together and possibly there are many more awaiting us.
Mum is a fighter and a strong woman and I leave knowing she is 100% happy with my decision and is supportive.
A new adventure awaits me,new places to discover,new people to inspire and to be inspired by,more lessons await and much much more.
Its never easy saying goodbye and I had my first round of it in Jozi where we sis and her hubby hosted a beautiful breakfast for my friends.It was a most enjoyable and special morning and I was touched by everyones presence.
Saying goodbye was not easy despite me not showing it however I know we will all keep in touch.
Friday, March 4, 2011
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