Back home in CPT

Well it was an interesting holiday this time around. I got to spend some decent time with everyone and got some insight into how mum is really doing right now. It was tense at times ironing out her transition and re-assuring her that all will be fine and that we do understand how she feels. On this holiday things did get a bit much where I couldnt handle listening to mums frustrations any longer and I think what makes it more stressful for me is that in the back of my mind I keep thinking this of course is not the way we wanted mums life to turn out and now she is going through all of this and one cannot undo it. We had it out a bit here and there and this is of course not what I want. I want only for her to be at ease and as comfortable as possible right now however she herself is finding her feet and routine after retiring full time. It was heart breaking to have mum give me some crockery to bring back to CPT now-I know that she is only thinking ahead and giving away her sentimental stuff now as we dont go to Dbn often however I could not help feeling a little down when mum was telling me about the crockery pieces and parting with it. Aside from the frustrations I did get to spend some family time with Aroon and family despite the busy weekends and I got to spend time with my friends who I miss dearly. I dont have these type of friends in CPT so when in Durbs I have to fill my soul with these special moments. I managed to host an afternoon tea with my glfs for my bday which was something special as well on this trip. How I miss the girly time! Keep an eye out for some pics that I will post soon.