2011 my best year yet!

So having received many wishes that I exceed the joys and achievements of 2010 I am breathing this wish in and starting to plot all that I desire and envision.
Life aint going to give anyone a chance to hit a pause button so as I have done in 2010 I am diving into new adventures and exploring more opprotunities in life.
Recently I have not been enjoying work and for the first time I have had sunday blues which never happens to me nor do I have a pang in my tummy on the way to work but somehow these feelings are sneaking in and I know why.
I am thirsty for something new and challenging and I am yearning for more growth and I have reached end within my role.
I am always one to look for the silver lining and turnaround feelings that I don't like and I make the most of where I am in every moment however I think I have now hit a wall where that well is low on fuel to fulfill me stagnating in my growth.
It has been coming on for a while and I wanted to see world cup through and managed to keep creative at work and busy and take on a fun additional role.
I wanted to see through a final xmas season too and improve on service stds for this period vs previous years and I feel a personal fulfillment within me and now its time to move on.
As my aunt said in her message "This is it Sue.Its going to be the best year of your life thus far.This is my prayer for you.And my prayers are always answered."

nostalgia

Thinking of these past few days with mum.
Was super special watching dvds with her and chilling.
It is as if she is making up for all the times I had longed to go to the movies with her when living in Durbs.
Mum was not always open to it.In my mind I thought mum was not for it as she won't make it comfortably without a cig.
That's how I summed it up however mum said again today that she has never been a movie person but has enjoyed these dvds we have been watching together.
I called this post "Nostalgia" as mum told me a few stories about her past.Pleasant stories maybe not at the time when unfolding but real interesting.
Mum spoke a lot abt her days in theatre and this new level of understanding and respect grew within me.
I also realised that when we as kids needed our mum at times for support and care in certain situations she appeared distant as she might have forgotten to remove her doctors cap.
Mum really touched many peoples lives,experienced and saw things we can't imagine and wow life flys by where she finds herself now looking back at that role she once played.
Mum rcvd many special calls over these few days from people from different aspects in her life which moved me deeply.Hearing their care,concern and willingness was so heart warming.

2010 comes to a close

Sitting here with mum for the third year running on the balcony of High Cape(ok not on the actual balcony this time as its too windy out there)
Feeling deep gratitude that mum has seen through another year with me here in Cpt.
Just listening as I type this to mums best friend Aunty Mona sing to mum over the phone and mum is tearing.
Really touched my heart to see this.True friendship after all these years :)
Aunty Mona is calling from London and mum is so touched.
Mum and I are watching a bit of Charlie and the choc factory.One of my fave movies....
First time mum is watching it :)
Reflecting on the year and I realised that a dream came true!I made it to New York!!!!!
Aside from NY and turning 30 I had lots of beautiful memories.
Looking forward to many adventures in the new year starting off with a goal that I am going to achieve in Feb.
Stay tuned!

merry xmas

Merry xmas!Awake real early lying here with the door open admiring the beautiful scenery of Pringle Bay.
Thinking about my family-miss my brothers.I am feeling deep gratitude for my mum seeing through another xmas with us.
I have most enjoyed having her here for the past few years.Maybe next year we can do xmas in Durbs.
I always miss out on Azizs' bday due to work however seeing that I managed to get a few days off this year I am going to aim for time off in Durbs next year.
It has been a lil challenging with mums pain and us havin mis-understandings with mum so there have been these pockets of unpleasantness however I feel yesterday we managed to speak to mum in a very calm manner to get a few things off our chests.
It really breaks my heart that after all these years mum is still stuck in a certain headspace and is missing out on a more harmonious life.
Mum intends to do the next MTL course and I am sure many things will shift for her.
Listening to the birds right now and glancing at the view-I so need to do more getaways in the new year.

feeling tired

I am craving a mini break.A small change of scene might do me a world of good!
I do have a few days off over the xmas period-cant wait to chill in Pringle Bay and sit in the sun,swim in the lake with my sis and just chill with the Bettys Bay clan.
Despite having enjoyable weekends I am mentally pooped.
A trip to an island....PLEASE??

The "Singles" table

Hmmmm....this eve after a most beautiful wedding on the beach(my first experience)we arrived at the reception and I looked at the table seating plan.
I was on table five only to click that this was the "singles" table and also re-iterated in the grooms speech.
Three single girls and five single guys ;) A little arkward at first but I rose to the occasion as I realised we with these guys for the eve and best I meet some new peeps.
I knew Kav so there were four dudes to meet.Two were friends of the bride who were here from Jhb and one was a work mate of the bride and the other a cousin.
So conversation was a tad challenging at times but we did ok I guess.
Upon my return from the loo I found my chair taken and that forced me to get to know "Ramsey" a bit who was sitting a few seats away.
Cool dude who ended up with my number.No no don't get excited.Didn't appear "like that".I was so thrilled that I have come along way from being that super reserved person who deep down was real shy to chat to others and I guess self confidence is something for me that has come along way.
Self confidence?I have been a self confident person all along have I not?
I even danced with one of the dudes on the opening dance and just went with the moment.Yeah I have come along way.Lol
All in all a beautiful cross cultural wedding.I love weddings and hope one day I have one too :) I am such a romantic

lost in a bloggers world

Recently I have stumbled across so many awesome blog sites and find myself spending loads of time reading these blogs.
I love reading about other peoples lives-especially the ones who have a passion for life and appreciate beauty around them.
I see most bloggers are all over the place in terms of twitter,facebook etc just like this blogger ;)
I need to start adding much more colour to mine I would say.
Imagine imagine imagine if I could blog full time....aaaah bliss!