Embracing that thing called "CHANGE"

What an awesome year it has been thus far and I am looking ahead into 2009 oh so positively. Change....well....I had to trade in my Spark and took a red corsa lite. Love the colour and it makes me think of my mum(She loves red cars) and the colour will make me think of her more so. Its cute and a fun car however of course totally different to the spark-so far I am feeling a much better drive on it but of course I am still feeling weird with the change and it will take a little while to adjust after bonding with my spark for over 4 years.....
The other change is that I am taking the plunge of standing on my own 2 feet after 5 years of living with Boeta Adhil and will be moving out and living with a girl from my bookclub and her beautiful Labrador Toby. All feels weird here again but in no time I am sure I will shake this feeling off.
The other change is I have made a drastic change to my hair do and I have lost 4kg thus far.....exciting.
A new Sue is hitting 2009............I am going to keep my chin up and embrace all the positive changes....more on this later-off to work I go-and no changes there yet but watch this space.

Time out.....

Well the year has started off on a good foot on a personal note however I have this uneasy feeling with this first part. I of course really want to pursue my goals and have made the relevant enquiries to start the step but with the economic situation all seems to be on a freeze for now. I had given myself until the middle of Feb to sit in hope before making any other plans or re-thinking my journey for 2009 however I feel it is clear that a mission is abroad is on hold for now.
Cpt is awesome and I am loving the activities and hub bub however I always miss family. I longed so much over the past few weeks to spend time with mum and some time with my big boet and his family and to get away from it all. Here I am now earlier in Durbs than expected to come and assist mum with her admin and give my assitance as I am feeling so helpless on the financial end. I live from check to check and have a great plan with my budget and start to make my brothers pockets a little lighter as they have carried me a great way through the years.
On the work front my team have somehow dissapointed me time and time again and I think after 5 years of giving my passion to the hotel and new people I need to re-think my mind set or make a change. I love the MNH and have grown in leaps and bounds however I have very high standards and my patience is wearing thin. I have started feeling like I am becoming another person at times at work and I think this is one of the many factors nudging me to make a move.
On my fitness level I am so in the front lane on this. This morning I jumped on the scale at Gateway gym and YAHOO I have lost 3kg! BRING IT ON! It was so good to be in the setting of a different atmosphere and different people in the gym here in Durbs. It was interesting to observe the different occurences at that time of the morning compared to my gym in Gardens. The pool here was empty vs a packed pool at 5h15 back home. There were suprisingly a good lot of peeps there. Nice to see! It was an awesome start to my Monday morning and my mental state. Being here with Aroon and family is so comforting and special-I dont think they know just how much I long to see them-one misses out on the moments of the kids growing up and the goings on in our siblings life.
SO looking forward to having Dills back this week. He arrives in Durbs soon and then we swim the Midmar mile-we going to miss Zsa who is going to kick our backsides next yr I guess as she is swimming like a mean machine these days.
Wow what a good space I am in this morning also having chatted to Xavier and mum on the phone. FAMILY-just love them.....
Sitting and chatting to Aroon last night about books and movies-priceless I tell you and he has without a doubt inspired me to write a blog on my reveiws of books and movies I have read.

Good bye 2008....2009 awaits

Well when I look back to the year behind me a few things come to mind:
-the new year I spent with mum from 2007 into 2008. A memory that will stay forever sitting in our pjs watching the fireworks from the balcony in Highcape and watching the music on tv. We had such a special time more so that mum had just been diagnosed.
-Going to the Westcliff hotel to problem solve and implement procedures-a planned 3 month stint turned into 4 months and for me was a great achievement personally as this pushed my abilities and I gymed like you will not believe-was fantastic having a gym at my residence :). I met some interesting people at the hotel, got to spend time with friends I do not get to spend time with as well as of course got to work on my relationship with my sis and her family. I spent my bday there at "Soi" with friends and family.
-My long awaited overseas trip and it was to Bali. Had the time of my life and I got to spend it with Adhil as well. This was God sent I tell you.
-I went back to JHB for Zaras' 1st birthday and spent some good time with mum while there.
-We all gathered for mums birthday in Cape town in Cape Town and had a memorable afternoon at Olivello.
-Durban was a gathering point for Aroons 40th bash-what a time we had re-kindling relationships with lost friendships with relatives.
-Getting to hash some time off to spend with everyone during the Xmas period which is rare for me-a very stressful period at work with a newish team that really sapped me but of course I conquered.

All in all a positive year with many achievements personally and of course this was just an indication of more to come.

2009 I wish to spend more time with my family that I miss very much and I wish to achieve more.

Loving the Sunday morning beat

Wow just having a moment listening to some cool beats on the radio and a bird chirping out there in the stillness of Sunday morning. I cant believe the year is drawing to an end and I have been feeling for change. Have been investigating this avenue however I know I will be guided in the right direction with mum in mind.
It has been a goos 2ns stretch to the year as well. Aroons birthday was a great hit recently. Lots of fun and good memories. What a time we had. Aroon holds a very very special place in all of our hearts. "My brother.....my hero"(You might think and what about my other brother?) Well of course he is my superhero ;)

Life is beautiful

Well its been a good journey this year. I went to Bali after my stint at the Westcliff hotel and it was one of the best times of my life. I felt so relaxed in my own skin and loved the fact that it was summer wear everyday and that included when going out at night. I met some interesting people as you do when you travel abroad.
I forgot how exciting international travel is and the entire trip was enjoyable and I cherished every moment. More so it was amazing that Dills and I were meant to go on this trip at the same time in our lives. I would not trade anything for the fun time we had together and we did well when he met up with me after the wedding he was there for. We did our own thing as well as spent good time together. I am so thrilled that I got to at last taste the Far East for a bit and of course no doubt I will go back to explore more. Yes I still have my major plane phobia and going on a long trip was a little stressful however pat on my back I did so so well and it helped having Adhil on the same flight back which was booked seperately funny enough. Coming back was of course good as well-how can you not look forward to coming back to CPT however I longed for Bali for weeks after. Since then I have been keeping myself busy and trying to discipline myself with my gym and eating routine-the holiday really messed up that but this aint a complaint!! Work wise I feel I have been stagnating a bit now and have many thoughts going through my head! I need to start learning new things now. Watch this space! Mum and I had a most memorable week in CPT and every single day I cherished. Mum is doing so well and was here over Dads death anniv. We got to go together to the beach and place flowers in the water in memory of Dad. The day before I had a bit of breakdown thinking how am I going to deal with this. I felt so so emotional and kept thinking what if this was the last time we get to do this with mum on Dads day and what if this was her last bday. I am always a positive thinker however this kept flooding my mind. I was totally anxious about Dads day and mum was so strong on the day and so was I. Mum is getting her results on Monday from her P.E.T scan and then we will assess the next plan of action with the family support. It has been really trying at times for me however I get through it. I also am struggling with the lack of commitment from Mums side as it seems that she is still having 1 cig a day! All in all having a good time right now at the same time with all this family time. Today is Yasmins' bday celebration and I get to spend it with the Stephens and Schrueders and most exciting of all I get to spend time with Aunt and Uncil. Dills is back-thank goodness as it would have been difficult being alone after having mum here for a week and being surrounded my family over the previous weekend. Well watch this space for exciting pics and news from my trip to Durbs next month for my Boeta Aroons 40th.YAHOO!

What!!!!!!I last blogged in July!!!

This is not on. So much to write and no pc at the mo. Been having a good second half of the year and love spending time with my family. Exciting events on the horizon-mums bday in CPT and Aroons 40th in CPT. I miss everyone so much.

On leave-yahoo

Well I am officially on leave and guess what......it did not take me long to get into leave mode. How can you not when you start off in Durban with you start off in durbs with sun and sea? Sitting at the beach cafe was awesome spending time with the Patels. Its been great for a change not rushing from seeing one person to the next.
Had the chance to go with to drop off Aziz and Adam at school this morning. Was really special. Will update with lots more soon.